Oh those morning people…

I expect that one day, I’ll truly be a morning person. I say expect because waking up at the butt crack of dawn and being super productive in the morning hours seems like one of those things all successful, real-world adults do. The kinds of adults that have their sh*t together. I admire those people who start their day hours before they have to go to work- enjoying hot coffee, a well prepared and balanced breakfast, reading, meditating or praying, or working out- all while the sun’s rising (or before the sun’s rising) and the birds are chirping.

Taking the morning hours to do what needs to be done to keep yourself feeling balanced, productive and motivated just seems like an obvious way to improve the quality of your life. Take almost any article about the routines of top CEOs and it’s always like, “Oh yeah- I wake up at 5 am, run 10 miles, read the paper, meditate, respond to emails, do some creative thinking exercises…NBD.” It’s impressive and makes sense. And yet, I myself, still wake up as late as possible before leaving for work! Luckily, I’ve pretty much mastered the art of getting ready quickly. Wash my face, brush my hair (usually,) a little make up, coffee to go and byeeee! I’m out the door. Generally rushing. And cranky. But that’s just where I am right now.

The real issue, however, is that even on the weekends I have this innate anxiety about getting up early and making the most of my two days off- not sleeping through half of them. It’s the anxiety that is the problem. Why, oh why, do I make myself anxious completely unnecessarily? I love to sleep! Sleeping in is an amazing luxury to have- one that I also expect disappears once you get married, have a family and have other people depending on you for things that can’t be slept away. Me? I have no real, absolute reason to get up and go. And moreover, certainly no reason to give myself a panic attack if I hit snooze a few times.

So often, I make myself feel bad for sleeping in. I get massive anxiety and start rushing to get my day started- so much so, that I ruin the luxuries that are Saturday and Sunday mornings for a 24 year old who has no pressing commitments at the moment. Right now, I’m working on accepting that I am not yet the kind of morning person I would like to be. If I decide to snooze, snooze and snooze, and end up waking up at noon instead of ten on Sunday- the world is not over! Too frequently I feel like a loser for not living up to these self-imposed high standards that I assume I absolutely need to have to be an accomplished young woman. But, realistically, what’s the point of doing something you wanted to do- and enjoyed- and then subsequently loathing yourself for doing the very thing you chose to do? It’s madness.

I have realized that there’s no universal definition of a “successful” person. If I know I’m not ready to make a life change- like waking up super early everyday or simply setting an alarm for the weekends and actually getting up when I intended to, without fail- then beating myself up over not meeting a self-imposed and idealized standard is not only unhealthy for my self esteem, but also totally unhelpful. It’s a funny thing to admit, but in this fast-paced, stress ball of a city, I seem to forget something that is so crucial to happiness: being nice to yourself. Relaxing. Not acting like every minute is a matter of life or death.

Let’s continue to make strides in our lives, but not forget that we’re human. Aka- not perfect and definitely not robots programmed to kill it each day. Let’s be patient with ourselves and remember- your best is going to be different from someone else’s best and that’s totally okay! Plus, your best is always going to be fluctuating and ultimately getting better if you so choose. What you thought was your “best” two months ago, might now be morphing in to new levels of awesomeness. We just need a little patience and to be kind to ourselves. Now’s the time to live up to our own standards.

Do you ever feel like you’re beating yourself up necessarily? What’s your morning routine that keeps you happy? What’s your definition of success?

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9 thoughts on “Oh those morning people…

  1. Wow, it’s as if you pulled a page out of my journal and posted it up here! Girl, I feel the EXACT same way!

    It’s funny, because back in undergrad I was so much more disciplined with getting to bed at a certain time, getting those 8 hours of sleep and waking early enough to get ready for my 8:30 or 9 am class. Now? Well, since starting grad school the stress has been completely different, and I find myself getting anxious and therefore heading to bed later and later. Waking up before 9 am is definitely NOT possible for me anymore, but my co-workers are all at the lab between 9 and 10 so I have this pressure to be there early. Yet I am so unproductive in the morning and early afternoon! Evening and night-time is when I’m most awake and mentally active. Funny how things have changed over the years! If it weren’t for my judgemental co-workers, I probably wouldn’t feel so bad sleeping in lol.

    Anyways, that’s the end of my novel comment LOL but I feel so much better knowing that I am not alone! I just found your blog and I’m already hooked 🙂 Keep those posts coming!

    xo from Toronto!

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    1. Yo yo yo! Thanks so much for taking the time to write this and for swinging by my blog! I’m glad to hear I’m not the only one who feels like this… it’s funny cuz I feel when I was in college I did have that anxiety to wake up earlier, make sure I got my work done and still enjoy a social life! But I still stayed up way too late and would get up anyways and feel like a zombie some days… I still have that seize-the-day-anxiety now- but sleep is just so amazingly awesome so when I can snooze I totally do haha Looking forward to checking out your blog too!

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      1. I totally agree! I’ve come to appreciate my zzz’s so much more now. I think we just get so caught up in our work and errands during the day that we put our creative juices aside, and they don’t hit us til nighttime (at least that’s the case for me!). Hence the 2am bedtimes haha.

        Thanks for the follow btw! That’s really sweet of you 🙂 Looking forward to your next posts!


      2. So true. Right before I sleep I suddenly remember a million things I wanted to say/ do/ write haha mannn… anyways, looking forward to your next posts too! Happy bloggin’! 🙂


  2. Very well said. I’m actually kind of jealous of everyone who doesn’t have to get up before dawn and can sleep as long as they want. Enjoy it while you can because when you get married and have kids that all goes out the window! My kids have to get up at 6 am for school but my 8yr old often wakes me up at 5 am so he can get ready!! And sleeping in on the weekends….girl bye!! Lol! Get all the sleep you can and want…you’ll need it for later in life! 🙂

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    1. Thanks so much for taking the time to write this! And yesss- that’s what I keep thinking- once I actually have real responsibilities, sleep will be even more of a luxury! I don’t know how moms do it- you’re awesome hah If ever get up before dawn it’s almost always for a flight. Otherwise before dawn= night time. Happy almost mother’s day!

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